Needs Work

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I've been writing for the last hour, and I still have yet to finish a Sunday Starter. I tried picking up some old posts that I began a while ago: one was about the Cobra Effect, another about being an underdog, a third about being left-handed, and a forth titled Puffins. I worked on each one for a little bit until I hit writers block, in which then I moved on to the next topic hoping it would be different. It was not different. I've now made my way through four ideas and instead of being finished I am staring at them lined up in my OneNote with a "(Needs work)" next to each title. That's what I write when my idea is almost finished but not quite there. As I stared at it just now, I felt very tired. They all needed work and I didn’t' feel like I had any more work to give.

It's 5pm on Saturday and I have about 45 minutes until I need to get ready for evening plans. I'm exhausted because I already spent all morning and afternoon in EMT class. That's after working a full week, spending three nights in EMT class, and knowing I'll need to spend my Sunday getting more work done to hit my Monday deadlines. As the feeling of being tired overwhelmed me, I chuckled to myself and thought "these posts need work… but so do I."

I need to sleep.

I need to rest.

I need to let my mind be calm.

I need to heal.

I need to recover.

I need to breath.

I have big goals right now, lots of things I want to do but the reason I want to do any of it is so I can be the best version of myself. If I reach my goal but sacrifice my health and mental well being, then I didn't reach my goal at all. Some weeks we need to adjust our expectations of our outcomes and remember why we started in the first place. Sometimes, we just need to stop working on everything else and just work on ourselves. Sometimes, working on ourselves means doing no work at all.