Personal Growth Blog

“In the critical moment of decision, being kind to yourself is not letting yourself off the hook for things that matter to you, but rather remembering what really matters to you.”
—Kristen B. Hubler | Be Kind To Yourself (Part 2)
Building Wings
I wrote that poem when I was 8. It was the first thing I ever wrote, but it wasn’t the last. My journey from that 2nd grade classroom to 2022 is one I decided weeks ago I wanted to tell you about. I wrote most of it in November, then in late December I set it aside in a queue of mostly finished pieces. What I didn't realize was that…
Muddling Through
Several weeks ago, Facebook shared a memory with me of a trip to Budapest. It was in 2019, just before Christmas, just before the world changed forever. I was supposed to be there for work Monday and flying home Friday, just in time to attend an annual Christmas concert that I hadn't missed in 8 years, as well as a weekend away for a friend's birthday. Long story short…
Slip and Fail
The first time I stayed at the Home 2 Suites in Lehi, I saw this little card next to the front desk. It highlighted a nice path nearby where I'd be able to walk or run. I wanted to grab it and go explore, but the part of me that doesn't like to try new things talked myself out of it. I thought about it every morning when I woke up. I thought about it the next time I was there too. But instead of taking a risk with the unknown, my anxious self-talk talked me down and I stuck with the treadmill in the small hotel gym.
I Didn’t Know
In this picture, I'm standing on top of a ledge that I would have never even thought about climbing if it wasn't for Bryce.
Forget the Forecast
It was getting closer to 3pm. I had told myself that I was going to get back out on the trails by 4 and so I started to gather my things. I finished my lunch, got my backpack, and was ready to head out when Chad told me about the forecast.
Following The Trail: Part 2
Last week, or in my time-line 30 seconds ago, when I wrote about following the trail, I couldn't help but think about the people that laid down the rock towers. Before I ever set foot here, who was the person to see a giant rock that looked like a whale and decided to try and climb up? And not only did they climb up, but they laid down a path so that they could climb up again.
Following The Trail: Part 1
A few days ago, I had taken a wrong turn after work and found myself at Cabela's. On a whim, I went inside to see if I would be inspired to buy any last minute supplies for my trip. Medium story short, I bought a map of Moab. I didn't actually think I would need it, because phones and GPS and Trail Apps and all that, but it was there and I was there, so I bought it. I figured it would be a good souvenir. Fast forward to a very large national park, no cell service, and my souvenir map becoming my best friend.
Time
Every year, one of my friends sends out a letter for Christmas. She types it out and spends lots of thoughtful time updating her friends and family on everything that is going on in their lives. As a family that lives in a different state without internet or cell service, these letters and our occasional land line phone calls are the only time I get to catch up. I cherish getting the letters and reading them. It’s like I’m taken back to a time and place where…
Don’t Stop Believing
I was driving down a local highway, switching through radio stations, when I landed on a song I have heard a million times. This time, though, it took me back to a different place…. Some will win… some will lose… some were born to sing the blues… Oh the movie never ends it goes on… and on… and on… Suddenly I'm standing there with Kyle and Morgan.
Wear Your Medal
Something I love about marathoners, and perhaps runners in general, is that we aren't afraid to celebrate. When you cross that finish line, a special thing happens. You are handed your medal, you put it over your neck like everyone else, and you celebrate the big thing you just did. At the finish line, it doesn’t matter how fast you ran the race. It doesn't matter…
Iron Sharpens Iron
It was about mile 7. Or maybe it was 8, when I first saw him coming up next to me. He hung there for a while, matching my stride, then falling a little behind when I would get some bursts of energy. Then, nearing mile 10, when I started to hit the wall, he edged far enough in front of me that I could see the back of his shirt. It read: Iron Sharpens Iron.
Be All There
A few weeks ago, I took the road less traveled. Instead of running the same road to the bridge and back, I decided to go left. I ran and chose a new road that I had never gone down before. When I got to a cross-road I chose a direction and kept going. About halfway through, I looked at a map and realized that if I kept going in the same direction my total mileage back home would probably be over 10 miles. I could turn back at that point, and run a total of 7. Or I could keep going.
Untitled
I came to the café today to work on my book, but when I sat down I felt so heavy with thought. Thoughts that weren't about my book. Thoughts about life and the more I tried to push them aside, the less focused I was. So instead of trying to push them away, I opened up a blank page, called it Untitled, and just started writing.
The 5%
There is a quintessential moment in nearly every romantic movie. It's that dramatic kiss when the couple finally gets together. Imagine that moment right now. Now tell me - what's the weather like? Is it raining? Yeah.. It's probably raining because it always is. Sweet Home Alabama… The Notebook… Singing in the Rain… although I guess we saw that one coming. But heck, even Spiderman and Daredevil make the list. I don't know why a kiss isn't as romantic when the sun is shining, but it's true and that's what I was thinking about as I was sitting on my kayak watching the storm clouds roll in.
Upstream
When I was a kid, my favorite part of the water park was the lazy river. Sitting in a tube and just letting the current take you was the most simple and yet satisfying experience. Just sitting in the tube, of course, was never enough. I would need to hang beside it, one hand attached to keep me a float, with the rest of my body kicking and going with the flow to see how fast I could get.
Fix It Or Quit It
The other day, after driving 6 hours, I went to open the driver side car door only to realize I was trapped inside. I pulled on the handle several times but somehow it got caught mid-way through opening. I pulled and shook it but the door wouldn't budge. I then had to…
Remember The Asparagus
Last night I met Dale. He's an older man, retired, with horn rimmed glasses and a very healthy appetite for life. He was in town to cheer on a friend in a three day fishing competition where he hoped his friend would make it to day three. Don't worry though, because if he didn't he was going to visit the longest zipline in the US which, according to him, was somewhere between NY and Boston (I looked it up - it's at Hunter Mountain, in case you want to go). Toward the end of the night, as we talked over the empty chairs beside us at the bar, he told me a story that I hope I never forget.
The Sterile Cockpit
A few hours ago I was sitting on a plane, staring at the closed cockpit. It was a small jet, and so in seat 2A I was just about 10 feet back from where the Captain was flying the plane. Despite being so close, I couldn't see anything. The cockpit was closed and the door never opened for the duration of the two hour flight. The reason for that, is what is called the Sterile Cockpit.
Back In The Habit
It’s 11am on Sunday and I am still in bed. Late last night, I flew back from a week away in Cancun, Mexico. I spent just about the entire time drinking piña coladas, relaxing by the pool, and not having a care in the world. For that reason I’m sure it’s easy for you to understand then why I am nursing my coffee, snuggled in the sheets and not wanting to get back to “real” life.
Mix It Up
I can’t remember the last time I was the first to wake up in this house. This year we have 8 adults, 3 young kids, and two dogs, so I’m not really sure how the only one without kids managed to get up first. But here I am, sitting outside on a cool summer morning, coffee in hand, listening to nothing but the sound of the birds.